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Backplaces
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Hi.
+I made this play for you. It is a question, for us to hold together.
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Is all intimacy about bodies? What is it about our bodies that makes
+intimacy? What happens when our bodies distance intimacy from us? This
+small anthology of poems and short stories lives with these
+questions—about having a body without intimacy and intimacy without a
+body. This project is also a homage to everyone who has come before and
+alongside me, sharing their vulnerability and emotions on the Internet.
+I called the places where these things happen backplaces. They are
+small, tender online rooms where people experiencing societally
+uncomfortable pain can find relief, ease, and transcendence.
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I made three backplaces for you to see, click, and feel: Solar
+Sibling, Hermit Fantasy, and Cake Intimacies. Each of these is the
+result of its own unique performance or project. Some of the stories I
+will share carry memories of pain—both physical and emotional. As you
+sit in the audience, know I am with you, holding your hand through each
+scene. If the performance feels overwhelming at any point, you have my
+full permission to step out, take a break, or leave. This is not
+choreographed, and I care deeply for you.
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Solar Sibling is an online performance of shared loss about leaving
+and siblings. This project used comments people left on TikTok poetry. I
+extracted the emotions from these comments, mixed them with my own, and
+crafted them into poems. It is an ongoing performance, ending only when
+your feelings are secretly whispered to me. When you do, by typing into
+the comment box, your feelings are sent to me and the first act closes
+as the sun rises.
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Hermit Fantasy is a short story about a bot who wants to be a hermit.
+Inspired by an email response from a survey I conducted about receiving
+emotional support on the Internet, this story explores the contradiction
+of being online while wanting to disconnect. As an act it’s a series of
+letters, click by click.
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Cake Intimacies is a performance that took a year to bring together.
+It is a small selection of stories people told me and I held to memory
+and rewrote here. The stories come from two performances I hosted.
+First, I asked participants to eat cake, sitting facing or away from
+each other and sharing their stories about cake and the Internet. The
+second performance was hosted at the Art Meets Radical Openness
+Festival, as part of the Turning of the Internet workshop. For this
+performance, I predicted participants’ future lives on the Internet
+using felted archetypes and received stories from their Internet past in
+return. Now the stories are here, each of them a cake with a filling
+that tells a story, merging the bodily with the digital and making a
+mess of it all.
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The play ends as all plays do. The curtains close, the website stays
+but the stories will never sound the same. For the final act, I give you
+the stories. It’s one last game, one last joke to ask my question again.
+Digital intimacies about the digital, our bodies and the cakes we eat.
+For the last act, I ask you to eat digital stories. To eat a comment, to
+eat a digital intimacy. Sharing an act of physical intimacy with
+yourself and with me, by eating sweets together. Sweets about digital
+intimacies that never had a body. There is no moral, no bow to wrap the
+story in. A great big mess of transcendence into the digital, of
+intimacy and of bodies. The way it always is. Thankfully.
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Talking Documents
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This project appeared as a need to explore potential bureaucratic
+dramaturgies within the educational institution I was part as a student.
+I was curious about educational bureaucratic mechanisms being driven by
+smaller-scale paperwork struggles and peers’ narratives, stories and
+experiences. However, unexpected emergencies - due to my eviction on the
+31st of January 2024 - placed centrally my personal struggles unfolded
+in parallel with the making period. I ended up conducting accidentally
+auto-ethnography as the project was dynamically being reshaped due to
+the material constraints of the bureaucratic timeline.
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Talking Documents are performative bureaucratic text inspections that
+intend to create temporal public interventions through performative
+readings. I utilized the paperwork interface of my smaller-scale story
+in order to unravel and foreground questions related to the role of
+bureaucracy as less material border and as a regulatory mechanism
+reflecting narratives, ideologies, policies.
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Central element of this project is a seven-act scenario that
+construct my personal paperwork story, unraveling the actual struggles
+of my communication with the government. The body of the text of the
+“theatrical” script is sourced from the original documents, email
+threads as well as recordings of the conversations with the municipality
+of Rotterdam I documented and archived throughout this period. I
+preserved the sequence of the given sentences and by discarding the
+graphic design of the initial forms, I structured and repurposed the
+text into a playable scenario.
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I perceive the document as a unit and as the fundamental symbolic
+interface of the bureaucratic network. The transformation of the
+materiality of a document into a scenario to be enacted collectively in
+public aims to examine these artifacts and highlight the shrouded
+performative elements of these processes.
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I see the collective readings of these scenarios as a way of instant
+publishing and as a communal tool of inspecting bureaucratic bordering
+infrastructures. How can these re-enactments be situated in different
+institutional contexts and examine their structures? I organized a
+series of performative readings of my own bureaucratic literature in
+different spaces and contexts, pubic and semi-public WDKA, Art Meets
+Radical Openness Festival in Linz, the City Hall of Rotterdam where I
+invited people to perform the play together, like a tiny theater.
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The marginal voices of potential applicants are embodying and
+enacting a role. “The speech does not only describe but brings things
+into existence”(Austin, 1975). My intention was to stretch the limits of
+dramaturgical speech through vocalizing a document and turn individual
+administrative cases into public ones. How do the inscribed words in the
+documents are not descriptive but on the contrary “are instrumentalized
+in getting things done”(Butler,1997). Words as active agents. Bodies as
+low-tech “human microphones”. A group of people performs the
+bureaucratic scenario in chorus, out loud, in the corridor of the
+school’s building, in the main hall, at the square right across, outside
+of the municipality building.
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I documented and recorded these public acts and I re-created the
+collectively voiced scenario. This audio piece is a constellation of
+different recordings and soundscapes of these public moments, a vocal
+archive, published in the graduation exhibition of XPUB in 2024.